The Truth about Me.

I am a daughter to the Most amazing Parents in the world. Words wouldn't do them justice.

I am a sister to 6 of the most incredible siblings, and 2 in laws I have ever met in my life. I cannot count the lessons I have learned by just observing them in their lives.

Sisters Picture, Taylor and Justin not pictured.

I am a Grandchild to The some amazing Grandparents. Both My Mother and Fathers Parents have taught me lessons of Humility, Patience, Love, Beauty, Caring, and have raised my parents to be the best they could be and I am eternally grateful for them.


I am an Aunt to two of the Most incredible little boys in the world. I am amazed every time I am able to spend any time with these guys how sweet their spirit is and how Loved I feel. I honestly cannot name a time where I have not walked away from Corgan and Greyson and not felt like a better person, closer to our Heavenly Father, and more in Love with them.

Corgan

Greyson

I am a Member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am a member because time and time again I have had my testimony tested and I know for a surety in my heart that it is The true church. And although life sucks sometimes, and I am not perfect by any means Being a Member of The church makes you know and understand how to come unto Christ and show humility and that you love Him, and are willing to make the changes in your life.

I am someone who doesn't forget. I remember my heartache, I remember the scene of other peoples heart's breaking and wanting to do everything but it being out of my hands. I remember words and gestures, whispers, despair, every heart wrenching detail of deaths That I have been present on. I can't forget but I can deal with them and learn in a healthy manner.


I am a friend and a good friend! I am a loving friend, and I will usually call you my friend if we have talked more then 10 minutes. But If I am calling you my friend, you can count on me for anything.

I care too quickly for people, yet I never trust soon enough.



I am a firm believer that Hard work pays off, I have hard work to thank for being where I am in my health today.



I am a comedian. I love making people laugh, I love finding humor in everything, I love love love finding the one person that won't laugh at anything and being able to make them laugh. Its who I am I love humor. I use it to meet people, I use it to protect my emotions, I use it to help the hurting people, I use it to relax, I laugh at songs when I am driving, I laugh at myself when I think weird things. I just love to laugh.

I am a student, although I hate the classroom setting. . I do love to always be learning and asking questions, It gets me in trouble sometimes but I would say its been well worth it. I love being intrigued and figuring stuff out on my own!


I love me. I love all these things I have listed. I am not conceited, but I have finally in my life come to a place to accept myself, Love myself and take care of myself. I think everybody needs that.

That is Me. If you have any questions Feel Free to ask

My Mind Was A Mess

"God Expects you to have enough faith, determination, and trust in him to keep moving, keep living, keep rejoicing. He expects you not simply to face the future he expects you to embrace and shape the future - to love it, rejoice in it, and delight in your opportunities. God is eagerly waiting for the chance to answer your prayers and fulfill your dreams. Just as he always has. But he can't if you don't pray, and he can't if you don't dream. In short he can't if you don't believe."

-Elder Holland

Then I got a letter in the mail, and a few quotes along with it. I love missionaries because I swear they always know exactly what you need to hear.




This weekend my sister Courtney Had her Art Show, I didn't take any pictures inside the actual art show. . But they let us graffiti the whole garage. So freaking awesome here are some of the pics from the garage. I freaking loved it!! I would have done it all night long if I could have.  

I Recently have developed an addiction to Bowling, So if anybody out there bowls and would like to come on Tues, Wed, or Thurs nights FatCats is way Cheap!! So Text me.


Fun Fact, I freaking Love my family!! I seriously am overwhelmed everyday by how blessed I am to have such amazing siblings and in-laws. I do not know what I would do with out this amazing people in my life. I love you guys!!

Love -
Kenzie

PS -
Winter Goals
1- Dance Off With Bristol Palin
2- Find A way to live in Park City for Free
3- Learn to Snowboard.

If you would like to hlep, or see any of these contact me.

The Day of The Dreadful Blizzard

Today has been an eventful day, It has only been 3 hours long yet has consisted of some quite entertaining moments. Here you all can enjoy them too. Please know That I have not stopped laughing since I woke up. Dear dreadful Blizzard, you have made my week thank you. 


Kenzie's Top Five Moments on The Day of The Dreadful Blizzard


* I Waited in the car as my mom went into the store, in the 5 minutes she was in the store, I was privileged to be able to see 6 adult people be blown down by the wind, literally fell to the ground, one rather "light" skinny man, looked like a matrix move He was blown so forcefully backwards when he tried to counterbalance he fell right on his stomach. It was incredibly awesome. (Disclaimer I have never seen the matrix, just the sunglasses)


*My mother called and urged us to gather all the flashlights and lanterns and find out all the battery sizes. Because when the power goes out, Which it will,  we need to have some sort of light. 


* I fell asleep in the drive through at Mcdonald's , Right after they gave me the diet coke and before they gave me the food. I woke up to "Ma'm Ma'm " 


* I was driving and looked in the mirror and saw mascara under my eyes, naturally I decided I should wipe it away. After three minutes of trying to get it off  it finally made sense, They were black circles under my eyes not mascara. 


* I am 78% sure I saw Angela from the office driving, But then again I thought the black circles were mascara so anything is possible. 

10 Ways I lost my 100

So, I never thought that writing a single blog about my weight loss would have such a chain reaction to so many people, in so many places. When I posted my blog I had to do it as a promise to myself, The reaction from others was immediate and was not all what I expected. I was expecting to be criticized and judged for what had happened. That was part of my fear of posting, I was scared that people who had recently met me or who hadn't seen me in a while would look and be disgusted and judge, make fun of, or just be hurtful in other ways.
I was wrong, very wrong. Soon after I posted I got messages of the exact opposite of things I was expecting. I had people telling me how proud they were, asking how I did, complimenting me in so many ways. I was overwhelmed by the responses I got, I never thought first that so many people would care to click that link that I posted, second care to comment, and third be so kind and supportive to me. As I mentioned in my first post It was and is the support of all the people around me that I am able to have these successes in my life.

[On that note, Can I just say that I have the most amazing people in my life. I don't know how I am so blessed  to be surrounded by such supporting family and friends that love and like me. You all know me, I hope you understand this. But bluntly put I always have anxiety that I am not good enough for people, or meeting their level. But getting all the responses and being approached after posting this blog it was a whole different view of what amazing non-judgmental people I have been blessed to have in my life. Seriously I cannot thank you enough.]

The Baugh Family July 2010.

Among the many comments and emails I got, there was something said that I just can't ignore or let pass. A few people have asked how I did it, what I ate, what exercise I did, every nitty gritty detail. I panicked as the emails kept coming because because I never expected that. I kept rationalizing that I may not have to respond because I did that post for me, and I wasn't running a diet blog. 
I realized though that the people emailing me were asking for help. They needed it just as badly as I do. So I have thought about how to put together this post to  give my support and tips to those who want to loose weight. I think I can narrow it down to a list of Top Tenish, I am typing this before I lay it out there so we'll see how it goes. . .

1- Do it for you-
Like I said in my first post, I truly believe the only reason I have succeeded is that I have done this for me. Anytime that I have "fallen of the bandwagon" as my dad calls it, or stayed the same weight after working extra hard I think about where I am and where I need to be. I will never forget the time I spent watching my awesome little nephew and wondering If I would make it to his first birthday or to see his brother be born. It makes me sick to think that that is what it took for me to realize I needed to get healthy so that I wouldn't miss out on their lives, and the healthier I get I realize how much of my own life I was missing out on. There is so much I have missed out on already that it motivates me to get healthier because I don't want to look back anymore and regret loosing chances because of something I could have taken care of.  
 2- Diet
I hate the word diet, I think it needs to be called a life change because in order to keep the weight off you have to do it for your life or, like I did you will gain back what you lost. My sister has a diet blog A daily dose of Dieting, click here  What I Try To Follow. This link outlines the diet that me and the members of my family who have been successful at loosing weight have pretty much followed. My whole family has had weight problems, and every member has tried different diets and this one by far has given the best, long lasting results. No its not a 7 day diet like the blog says, its a lifetime change but don't freak out, I know you can't do only this for the rest of your life.
3- Excercise
The more physically active you are the better you are going to feel. When I first started loosing weight I didn't want to heavily work out in public because I didn't like people to see me. Also it was hard for me to work out because, due to my obesity my body hurt. By 21 I have a horrible back, a replaced ACL and arthritis in my knees, my neck kills me and so on. So I decided my best option was to work out in the house. I started doing workouts from the comcast "on-demand" excercise tab. I loved it because they were 20 minutes, had tons of variety and they made you feel totally burnt. I would do the workout(s) and be dripping in sweat. A lot of them are lead by the biggest looser trainers, and I am confident in them :) I also just stuck in it my mind to move every chance I got. I was working at my old job where I would either sit at the desk or be stocking or running supplies. I started trading all my shifts to try to make sure I wasn't at the desk all night. I also started going on 30-120 minute walks with a friend at least 5 days a week. I realize this is not easy for people with kids or school, I was very blessed to be able to do this, sometimes we wouldn't leave until 11:00 pm but I knew it was important. 
4- Support
When I used to go on diets I hated people knowing I was dieting. I felt people judged me and it was like me saying, "I can't eat normal food because I am ginormous." I have realized that this is completely wrong, The more people know your on a diet the less likely you are to cheat. I didn't shove it down people's throats but if they asked I would tell them. Or if people were going out to eat I would decline and tell them why. You need people around you to know your on a diet and to not be tempting you, for me I was in a very serious situation and needed to be healthy. So my family, friends, co-workers, and anyone around me knew that I was on a diet. They asked questions, when I was a vegetarian they usually taught me more then I told them but it was awesome to have that help.  
5- Confidence
The word says it all. You cannot start expecting to fail. You need to believe in yourself, you need to see big awesome ending from the beginning or the bad days will engulf you and you won't be able to brush it off and keep going. Trust me I have been there I have fallen and not gotten back up, I have fallen and kept fallen, and then I fell and finally stood and decided I wasn't going to let it keep happening. To succeed you need to believe yourself when you say you can do it. 
6- Weigh Every Day
For me this is what works period. I know experts say don't do this, All I can say is when I don't weigh every day I usually gain weight. I don't think it is right to obsess over your weight and starve yourself if your not loosing weight. But I would not have been able to figure out that my genes don't handle white flour if I didn't weigh everyday because that's the only thing that was changed. Or that my diet soda really does make me hold onto weight. If you can go without the scale, then do it. But for my safety I keep it. 
7- Listen to your Body
  Your body tells you if you need water, sugar, salt, protein, fruit, vegetable, exercise, or sleep. You have to listen or you won't be able to succeed. When you ignore and starve your body of the things it is telling you it needs I think that's when you get caught in the funks and you feel sick and warn out. Those are times when I would give up, if I felt like what I was doing was hurting not helping and I hated it why would I continue. So this time I worked hard but there were certainly days where I ate ice cream, or chocolate, or cookies, or cheese and when I finally quit the vegetarian diet, I ate meat and it tasted good! And I didn't feel guilt or that I had failed. I just kept my lifestyle in order and knew that eating the small portion of whatever was just that. It wasn't going off a diet because I wasn't on a diet. It was simply having a treat, or trying something new. You just have to make sure that its not a daily thing, that you don't do it more often then eating healthy, It has to be special occasions, and in small proportions.

8- Give a little-
I think donating time, money, clothes, food, anything will keep you going. If your ever having a bad day helping someone else will make you feel better. If your not loosing weight, loose some old clothes, or loose some time helping someone else. I will honestly tell you that the times I went and gave away my time, money, or material things made me feel so much better then stepping on the scale and getting that number down just a little bit. It will make you continue and believe in yourself to keep going because you will feel like your worth it. For me When I felt little self confidence and like I was worth nothing I was more likely to quit. When your out helping others and being selfless you usually do not feel that way...

9- Meditate
I have never sat cross legged with my hand out and hummed. But I have sat in bed at night and thought a lot about my future and what I am going to do. During this time I always see myself as a healthier me. I do this because that is what I am working towards, it goes along with the confidence. There is a book called Think and Grow rich. The idea of the book is if you go to bed every night saying to yourself  something like " I am Bob Thomas, I am smart, I will be a doctor in 5 years, and I will be rich in 7 years." By doing this you make yourself believe it and give yourself the willpower to do it... I never sat there and said " I am Kenzie I am fat, I will be skinny in 6 weeks by only drinking water" But I would give myself some time at night to reflect on what I had done for myself that day. I don't care how stupid or cheesy it sounds but I needed this time to sit and analyze my diet and excercise for the current day and decide what I would keep or throw out for the next. These times helped me realize that I ate a lot when I was nervous, stressed, bored, or angry. I was then able to catch myself the next time I was about to eat at these times and do something different. Or I would sit and think, was that 500 calorie candy bar really worth it, no it wasn't so the next time I wouldn't eat it. The more I thought, the more I realized that when I was eating I wasn't thinking at all and that was a huge problem.  
10- See it
Do whatever you need to see yourself thin. For me it was finding out how much my sisters weighed, does that make sense at all . . No because they are all a good difference in height from me. I also loved looking at pictures from junior high, yup don't worry thats the last time I was in the weight range. I could see where I was headed and it gave me hope. I still am working on loosing more weight and I still look at my sister and hope to look like her. It drives me crazy to have so much behind me, and so much in front of me at the same time, but I can see that there is an end eventually in sight. You have to be able to see that, or your going to give up.

So thats what I have done, or at least what I have recognized what skills have helped me. I honestly feel so inadequate writing anything down and telling anyone steps to how to loose weight because while doing it I had so many set backs. But looking at it that was the only way I could have succeeded. Everybody does things different and I think it is vital to your success to do what feels right to you.

Thank you again for your reading and support, love you all.
-A Lot Less of Kenzie :)

It's 4:00am

And I am awake, I have written the second part of my continued post, and as soon as its checked I will post it. I have redesigned my blog, because usually every time I sign in I play around with it. Obviously I don't blog often because I don't know what the heck I am doing. But I just wanted to get on here and tell you all how grateful I am.

I am grateful for my amazing parents
I am grateful for my fantastic siblings and the relationships I have with each of them

I am grateful for my nephews, seriously I could spend endless hours with those kids
I am grateful for the Church of Jesus Christ to which I belong
I am grateful for awesome friends

I am grateful for a fantastic job [ I wish I had a picture of all my work girls, they are amazing!]
I am grateful for music, nuff said
I am grateful that I finished my biology lab and never have to take it again (4x was enough)
I am grateful for my cell phone
I am grateful for Park City 

I am grateful for flip flops
I am grateful for yoga pants
I am grateful for antibiotics
I am grateful for the puppies, even though they don't stop barking

 Or Drooling . . . . Yes I even love these ones

I am grateful for bowling and the lucky times I get a strike 
I am grateful for where I am today and where I have been
I am grateful for the "slap in the face" moments in life
I am grateful for fishing, especially my dad's patience in teaching me to fly fish

I am grateful that I have 6 sisters and 2 brothers
I am grateful for the outdoors, I wish It was warm outside again I miss it
I am grateful for my awesome friends examples to be great people
I am grateful for the chance to have a new day everyday
I am grateful to be able to meet new people daily

I am grateful for the skills I have been blessed with
I am grateful for my soft hair, vain I know
I am grateful for pacifiers, and sugar water. . . The babies are too
I am grateful for my queen sized blanket on my twin bed
I am grateful for my jeep and its awesome sound system
I am grateful for my teachers who don't give me crap for never showing up to class. .

I am grateful for online classes
I am grateful for my headphones
I am grateful for the neighbors tree's, cause we never had any :)
I am grateful for out trampoline
I am grateful for the built in camera on my computer its awesome

  Well now that its almost 5 I think I should go. I think your all awesome if you got this far. Let me know what your grateful for. :)

Goodnight!
Kenzie

Well Well

I am writing another post in response to all of the comments emails and emotions that came from my last blog post. I just wanted to say a quick thank you to everyone who has read my post. This will be repeated again but I did not expect that kind of response and It is taking some time to take it all in and find the right words to express how I feel. I will also be going into more details about the whole things answering peoples questions. I love you all!! You are fantastic and beautiful people.

Thank you
Kenzie

                                  Cassi this is for you, I know your missing me :) I love you !!

The Best Friends Weddings

Taya and Shaun were set up on a blind date back in March. After about 3 weeks they both knew they were meant to be together forever. Growing up me and Taya always talked about when we would grow up and get married, how we would know it was the right guy etc. The one thing we decided was that we would know it was the right guy if the other one liked the guy. Through Taya's dating I never really like the guys she dated, and I think thats how we came up with this philosophy. When Taya called me after the first date and told me she really like this guy, I had a feeling this might be it. The idea was set in stone after I first met Shaun. He is an incredible guy and impressed me from the beginning. I couldn't help but agree with Taya in every sense of the word the he was "perfect" for her. They got married on September 2nd in the Draper Temple. It was Beautiful, and the whole day went smoothly. I am so Excited for them!

Ben and Amber met up at BYU Idaho during winter semester. When Ben called me and told me how in love he was with Amber I was so excited for him. Everytime we talked he was more and more in love with Amber. The first time I met Amber it all showed. She was so easy to get along with, and hilarious. I am so excited for them to get married. They are getting married back east where her family is from so they had a Reception here before they fly back for the wedding. Thanks for letting us all come and have a fun night with great entertainment, dancing, and food. You guys at fantastic.

Mom's Birthday

Yesterday Was my Mom's birthday. We were able to pull off a surprise birthday party, for the first time ever! My dad planned the whole thing thing and while he was at work the kids worked together and got things put together. The hardest part was getting everything into the house and set up in the 30 minute window that Mom was picking dad up. This included the temperature sensitive food that Mom couldn't see, and the decorations, but like I said it was a huge success and it was so nice to have everyone there!

I seriously do not know how my mom does it. She amazes me day in and day out. When most people hear that she had 7 kids they are pretty shocked that she is still sane. If you have ever had a chance to meet my mom you would know she is more than sane. She is the best example of someone who never gives up, who has complete faith in the gospel, and someone who has their priorities straight. She has taught all of us kids How to be our best selves and has helped us when she can, and stood by us when we needed to grow. I love her so much and feel so blessed to have her in my life.

Mom turned 55 this year, and in her words she has 45 more years to go! Happy Birthday Mom!!!

Some Pictures from the party , Enjoy :)

Ashley Me and Court Getting Ready for Mom

 Greyson Just Hanging Out With Mom

Hanging Out with The Family

Corgan Playing On The Cell Phone With Courtney

Cassidy Cuddling Simba While He slept. Such a good aunt.

I am not quite sure what was going on here. . . . . Courtney and Greyson.


It Was such a great party, and I think Mom was truly surprised and Happy to have all of her kids there.  Happy Birthday Mom We Love You!!

The Two Guys guys In My Life.

I have two of the the sweetest, happiest, well behaved, little nephews in the world. I seriously LOVE Corgan and Grey.  Now you might be wondering why this post is coming now, and why I am talking about them again. And there is are plenty of good reasons, one being I should be studying for my chemistry final. Another being this, I work night shift. A lot of the woman I work with amaze me. They work all night then go home and sleep only a few hours then get up and take care of there kids all day. I often say to them that I can't imagine not going home and not getting my 8 hours of sleep after work with no interruptions, they go on and say its worth it. . . . 

Well on sunday after work I went to my sister Ashley's house because Grey was getting blessed that morning. I got to there and laid there for about an hour until I fell asleep, Then about an hour after that I heard the kids wake up. My sisters husband is the ward clerk so he is gone Sunday morning's. So I had told Ashley I would help her get things ready for the blessing, I was dreading not having my sleep and having to get up and help with the kids.( As a side note, If anybody knows me they know how much I love kids, I mean love kids I will usually do anything to hold babies (outside of work) and to take care of kids. I have been this way since I myself was a little child, most people would put me in the slightly,  or just plain obsessed category.) So its a big deal for me to not want to be taking care of children. So I got up and went downstairs and Ashley was feeding the Kids. It took Corgan all of about 10 seconds to start squirming to try to get away from Ash to try to come over to me, He just started talking his own language and in it I could make out "Hi Kenzie How's your Day" I think thats when I forgot about sleep. 

Corgan then came over and sat by me and talked about the animals, and letters, and other random things. He kept laughing and smiling. He kept pointing to Grey and showing me random things. He was so happy I was there, and I was so happy I was there. I picked Grey up out of the seat, and started talking to him. Grey has learned to smile and slightly laugh this past week or so. He was going crazy with his smiles! It was making my heart melt, You know when you see a babies first little smile how   precious it is! Oh I just wanted to squeeze him. After about half an hour of playing and laughing with the boys Corgan came over and said he wanted to hold Grey, So I let him. I was Laying on the couch and Corgan Laid Next to Me and I put Grey On him. We sat there for Maybe five minutes, It just made me think of how lucky I was to be able to be taking care of the boys. 

I love these kids! I am so lucky to live so close to them, and have sister who lets me come over and visit them so often. And after sunday, and taking care of kids for a little on no sleep, I respect the mom's in my life even more! 

The Nephew Has arrived.

Ashley and Just had there little boy on Thursday morning, Since I work at the hospital she delivered at I was able to hang around after work till she delivered and do his newborn bath. He is such a Handsome little man!! I got to snuggle him a lot for his first two nights because I was working, so when Ashley was sleeping I was snuggling him in the Nursery. Ashley and Justin are such good Parents, and Corgan is such a good older Brother!! I love this new little guy so much, Greyson is such a sweet, calm, and content baby.

The Past Six Months

I am not good at updating a blog, and I apologize to all of those who are interested in reading it (Tara). Anywho, I also don't update it because my camera broke. Which is a good thing it broke now instead of when my kids who don't exist yet were starting to walk, or talking, or doing funny little things. Or even worse, what if it had broken when me and my Husband first met, and I forgot to make the " This is where it all starts" Album on facebook and I didn't have pictures of every second we spend together. That would be a disaster. So lets all be glad it broke now, and I have a while to go get a new one before all that stuff happens.

Anywho in the last six months.
(Disclaimer I will be stealing the following photo's from other people.)

I moved to Provo into the Sperry House with 8 other girls, one being my sister Court. I moved down there to go to school. The school thing didn't last long but I had a blast getting close with the girls, and  having fun with friends I had met before when I moved down there.

These girls are not all roomates, but its the only picture I have with all of us in it.

Back Row- Me, Not one, Kelly, Becca, Annie, Abbie, Not one

Front Row- Not one, Not one, Marrissa, Not one, Not one, and Christine. If that makes Sense :)

 I loved It down there !!

When I move down there I decided to quite my job up at Primary Childrens and Find a Job down there. It was really hard to leave primaries for many reasons. One of the main reason's was because as long as I could remember I had wanted to work in the NICU. Once I started working up there I realized how much I loved it, and I want to go back once I graduate from College!!  I also hated leaving because of the people I met up there! I loved working with people who were so funny, friendly, and brilliant. I loved working with nurses, nurse practitioners, Fellows,  and Doctors who were so willing to let me listen to what was going on and watch procedures and just learn about the unique things that go on up at Primaries. I loved it there. 

  

So when I got the Job on the Mom/Baby unit at American Fork Hospital It was quite the Change. It was hard to adjust to. But It has been totally worth it. At first anytime the health babies would do anything funky or weird I would automatically think something was very wrong with them because that's where my head had been. It was hard being on a unit where it was healthy people, happy people, where death was not it the back of the parents head. I don't think people understood why I wouldn't like being on a healthy floor rather then a NICU. But It was all I knew, it was what I was used to and I hated the change at first. But I have come to love it. I love being able to be a part of the care given to the mom and the babies. I love the people I work with, I love the place I work, and I love sending home healthy babies just days after they are born. :) It's different but it is a good different. 

With school, I moved to Provo to try school out at UVU. It sucked. I didn't think I hated school, just thought I hated going to school. Oh no I hated going to school at UVU.  So I quit, not surprising to most of those who know me. So when I moved back home I signed up for classes at SLCC for this summer and so far (1 week) they are going great. I am actually enjoying them this time around. I can't quit, or I won't have health insurance and for someone like me its less of a pain to pay tuition and go to class then try to be an adult.

During the long break I had of school. I spent a lot of time with friends, family and working.  So here are some pictures. :) Enjoy 

The sisters and Corgan. 

Ben, Me, Taya, Shaun

Sisters at Cassi's Graduation From SlCC

 Amber, James, and I after Dying easter eggs 

 

And of course here is Corgan, I just Love this Kid. He is the Cutest little guy ever!! I love that if you ask him " What does Kenzie Say?" He replies with " Hey" He says it right to, not just Hey, but Hey . .

So thats whats going on in my life. See ya again in six months. Or maybe I wll catch onto this blog thing. . . .